The Calling

Cheesy Pinterest quotes are a guilty pleasure of mine. I always save them or screenshot them for my own personal use or motivation but rarely post or share them on social media since the oversharing of quotes is a pet peeve of mine and I usually end up unsubscribing to people who are guilty of the dreaded over-share (at least i'm being honest). I admittedly had to "stop my scroll" the other day before leaving for Guate when a simple quote hit home for me and instantly brought tears to my eyes. It was one of those black and white ones, just text, no fancy photos or distractions, just the plain and simple truth. 

A job you can quit, a dream you can give up on, but a calling will chase you forever
                ariel view of Guatemala from my window seat 

                ariel view of Guatemala from my window seat 

As strange as it sounds I can say that i've known my calling almost my entire life. As I sit and type this in the sweltering heat and humidity of my little white concrete mosquito-filled room here in Guatemala I am gently reminded (between the itching of my chicken pox-like bites) that my calling is here. Trust me, i've run from it almost my entire life and it continues to chase me, hunt me down, and tackle me until i'm able to fight back or finally tap out. Guatemala (my country) has always been the place I love and fear the most. There are a lot of things here to technically be afraid of like high crime and corruption that goes hand in hand with low safety and security. Guatemala has robberies, murder, drugs, diseases, poverty, pollution, and the list goes on. Our Western minds and bodies are programmed to want safety and comfort (and sometimes complacency), we typically fear things that can destroy the body while completely glazing over things that destroy the soul. This trip has finally drilled it into my cute little brown head that i'm actually much more terrified of living a comfortable life in a self-serving society and failing to follow my calling than I am of any physical danger, crime, tragedy, or disease. As I go to bed tonight hot and sweaty, a few days away from returning to air conditioning, city life, loft life, and a life of luxury - i'm saying a little prayer that no matter how comfortable, cozy, or familiar life gets back in Canada, that lifelong chase will continue and my heart, my spirit, and my body will always find home and purpose here amongst the unknown as this story and this journey enter the next chapter.