So I did this crazy thing about 4 months ago. More specifically, I had a baby...and it rocked my world so much more than I thought a tiny warm ball of flesh ever could. My son's name is Orson Wilder and his birth was by far the most painful and terrifying thing that I have ever done in my entire life.
After an incredibly long labour that ended in an emergency c-section, his birth was definitely traumatic to the point where I can't even bring myself to write about it yet. All I can say for the time being is that after months of processing, I'm proud to say that I now belong to a badass tribe of mamas (online and in my community) and I have the honour of permanently sporting a wicked scar to prove that I had my baby cut out of me and lived to tell the story.
Orson is fast approaching five months and is growing leaps and bounds right before my eyes. I swear if I blink too long I'll be that old lady from the "I love you forever" book rocking my adult son in my lap back and forth...*sigh*. I love Orson more and more with each new day. He can actually do cool things now too and has a funny little personality (yes he's quite the character already). That being said, I've had enough time now for the whole motherhood thing to really sink in.
To be honest I'm having a bit of a mom-life-crisis trying to sort out my identity, deciphering who I once was with who I am now (but I'll leave those thoughts for another post). I simply want this post to be a bit of an introduction for you to see where this blog is headed. I realized I wasn't using it and while I was evaluating my own personal happiness I knew that I needed to start writing again ("if you don't use it you lose it") but didn't want the pressures of having to get my thoughts down all neat and concise. In a nutshell, I hope to create an open and safe space where I can share about life in general from all angles including my newfound mom life. Whatever I share I want to do so in a raw and real way.
No matter what, this blog is a celebration of life that includes stories, adventures, and new discoveries along the way. My husband (Matt) and I work hard physically, emotionally, spiritually etc. to curate a beautiful life for each other, whether that beauty comes from a perfect moment or an everyday mess. So bring on those moments and messes. This mama is ready to face another day!